Happy Mother's Day

A very good friend of mine, who has been so encouraging through this whole journey sent me this email today. Thought I'd share.......

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom-

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never been puked on.

Pooped on.

Chewed on.

Peed on.

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom-

I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom-

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him

down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't

stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to

make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,

the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

It is amazing to me that I have now joined the ranks of motherhood. This goal seemed so unattainable for so long. It's back breaking, heart wrenching, labor intensive, sleep averting, mind altering, heart growing, face glowing, joy overflowing, appreciation for my own mom growing. It's everything and a bag of chips :0)

Thank you, God, for this amazing blessing of my first legitimate Mother's Day. I pray that I will always look to you for guidance for this little incredible guy you've placed in our care. I am so humbled to realize how much potential You've given him and us. I pray for the wisdom to know how be his Mama as You would have me be. Thank you for this incredible experience- feeling and experiencing more than ever what relationship with you can be like- may we always come to you with our Owies and boo boos since you are always waiting there to hold us close.